Finding a Job After College | Harder Than I Thought?

From my previous posts on this page, I've talked about my fears before and after graduation. I even shared my journey during my last semester up until the big day. While I'm happy and proud of myself for graduating from college, trying to figure out my next moves have been rather difficult. I wanted a job right out college, I even had interviews a couple days after Christmas, not really giving myself a break. It's February now, I've been to more interviews, sent my resume in with no responses, trying to stay positive. It's been really hard.

I've heard of having post-undergrad depression from some of my high school friends after they graduated from school, and I've been doing my damnedest to fight this overwhelming of not being good enough for companies. In all honesty, I feel like I'm not prepared...I feel like with all the internships and jobs over the years don't qualify me for the positions I want, and all I want is an entry-level job.

People have told me to relax and keep looking and a job will come eventually, that I do agree with, but student loans don't wait. When my six months are up, I have to pay those payments. I don't have time to be unemployed...I won't have enough money to support myself/pay bull while working minimum wage jobs. If it comes to it, then I'll work a retail or a fast food position but then what would've been the point of going to school. How does my degree give me that extra 10-30% increase on a salary that I can't apply to or qualify for?

I keep reminding myself that it's February...only a few more months until my first student loan payment...what do I do in the meantime? I can watch TV and YouTube all day. I can go to the gym and continue to work on my weight loss goal. I can learn new skills on SkillShare. I've been doing all of these things, and I still feel stuck, unsure, and lost. A lot of the things that I enjoy to do on a daily basis have costs. I want to be independent, I want to be financial stable, but I also want to be happy. Finding a job, any job for that matter, after graduating college is hard, but staying positive and hopeful each day since graduating has been a lot harder than I thought.

Nicole Eggleston